I forgot to put my e-mail address on my personal info. It's pjsparks38@aol.com ty moms123
I have been divorced since 1985. My ex was abusive physically and mentally. I had 3 children, 2 boys and a girl. My daughter died at age 4. I was forced to go to work all the time, even after 2 days of her death. He kept on abusing my children and I. I always wanted to take care, and I love my children more than my own life. I raised them alone, and went to college for 2 years. After 4 years, I finally found a good paying job. It shut down within 4 years. During that time, I bought a small home. We have lived there since 1992. I became disabled because of clinical depression and anxiety attacks. My oldest son was born with handicaps. He draws ssi. Since then, the house is in bad need of repairs. Water ran through wall behind the washer and dryer. Causing the floor to fall through in places and cracked walls. In which, insurance refused to pay for repairs and canceled my homeowners. Baseboard heat, we cannot use and now our water lines to the kitchen has quit working. My son's check was taked by social sec. last December, without notice to me. I got so far behind on house payments and my phone was turned off. My car blew up on Christmas day 2010. Foreclosure is being threatened and more. We get about 1200 per month. Rent is too high and I have 2 dogs. Cannot even get to my doctor appointments, or where I need to go. I am so depressed that, I'm fearful of opening my mail. I have extreme high blood pressure which I have meds for and a nervous condition. I feel so bad about myself,that I don't want to even get up in the morning. My credit has gone from fair to bad. I feel so alone. Never in my life, did I think I would feel so useless. Too old to try and work on a job. I get $100.10 ssi, so I get medicaid and medicare. $589.00 social sec. My sons draws $449 per month. I feel so old and helpless. But I am still hoping and praying God will make a way for my family and I, and people sick and in need. I thank God for I have a 9 yr old grand-daughter. She is beautiful and a straight A student. My youngest son, gives me problems and I worry about him. Since my daughter's death, and me having to defend them from my ex; I have been too overly protective. He's a good hard working, smart young man...but lost his job. Now he's drinks almost everyday. He has tried for 8 months to get work. I love my family with all my heart and want to see them happy. But right now, I am a very depressed woman. I'm not me anymore! Reply anyone. Thanks for reading. This is my dirst time on here. God Bless You. ps please excuse my punctuation: It's been a long time since tech college. ty
